#reverb10 12-05-10

December 5 - Let Go.  What (or whom) did you let go of this year?  Why? My first thought was of course 'a Him'.  Then I started thinking about it - I really haven't let go yet.  Then I started thinking about it some more and came to the conclusion that I really don't let go of anything ever.  I'm a total grudge holder.  I even hold grudges against things.  Like my old fridge.  I bought that thing on sale - and it had a pull out bottom freezer - which I loved.  It broke to the point of no repair and I had to turn it in on warranty.  Of course, because it was on sale I didn't get full value for it which meant that I had to 'down grade'.  Now my fridge has a conventional freezer.  I'm still irritated at both of those fridges - the one that broke down and the one that doesn't measure up!

I don't mind letting go of things physically - but, even then I have to add a qualifier - I don't mind letting go of some things.  I always have a big bag for the church rummage sale.  However, I have a really hard time letting go of things that have been given to me (sadly, this includes objects which I've given myself - like my first Persian rug).

This is not to say that I don't make allowances for people and things - if I can attribute a particular behavior to a known 'deficit' then I can let go of quite a bit.  Like a family member that I consider crazy can get a way with a lot more than a family member I consider normal.  A car that I consider a jalopy can get away with a lot more than a car I consider a gem.  My Father gets concerned about my 'rigidity' - I tend to see things in black and white.  I realize that there is a grey area - like a normal person who is having a bad day and takes it out on me - heaven help them.  I have been known to look a sailor in the eye, waggle my finger and say 'oh no you didn't'!

I think I need to work on letting go. 

If the question was:  what do you want to let go of?  I'd have to say that I'd like to let go of my house....to either rent or sell.....but, I'm not sure that I'm quite ready - like I said...I need to work on it.