I love Hilo. I've said it before. I'll say it again. My heart is rooted in this place. Sometimes I just think, 'Hawaii you ruined me'.
The neurosis that pervades my adult live - where to live, where to work, where to settle, where not to settle - it is directly related to the fact that I love this sleepy little town so, so much. To look around every day and think, 'I live in a beautiful place' is important to me. Would it be if I hadn't grown up doing that?
Someday I assume I'll figure it all out. In the meantime I'll come back on holidays and wax nostalgic.